Today every simple task is a chore. I got no sleep last night - after the phone call I was up every hour after wards. I don't know why. I guess sleep isn't my friend lately. More importantly... who needs sleep when you've got such a great support system. Okay so it's not much of a system...it's simply a matter of dialing the phone and letting it all out. Hours of tears and hours of laughter - and my eyes hurt like hell today.

I hate how I get so messed up lately. I hate how just the smallest thing can set me off and I hate how I still continue to ignore that inner voice. The one I was told to listen to. I am not supposed to listen to my heart - I'm supposed to listen to my head. I paid some money for someone to tell me that. The least I can do is apply it to my life.

And even through all of the blackness I have, someone still managed to find some light somewhere inside. And he always knew it was there.