CONFESSIONS

Sometimes I make quotation marks with my hands. I do it for emphasis sometimes. It isn't as bad as the character Chris Farley used to play. I?don' t"over use" them. I?don't "look stupid" while doing it. At least I don't think I do.

I absolutely hate it when people end a sentence with the word 'so'. I never know what the person intends with using it. Do you hang around and wait for them to finish their sentence/thought? ... Do you finish it for them? Walk away? A person wouldn't write something and then end it with 'so...', why would you say it? ... DUMB.

I have had fingernails for over a year now and I still have no idea how to clip them. They always look lopsided and sometimes I trim them too short. Chomping on them was always so much easier. There was only one objective: chew 'til there was nothing left to chew on.

I have the terrible horrible problem of misjudging people. I tend to think poorly of a person before I get to know them. And sometimes the person that bugged me the most turns out to be someone that I have the most in common with. Eventually I find something that I like and that turns into something better - and I end up going "why was I so hard on this person at first?" .... I need to learn how to give people a chance. It isn't always this way, but I find it happens more often than I'd like to let myself believe.

And sometimes those people that I like right away tend to be the people I should have stayed away from in the first place. How I can be such a terrible judge of character is beyond me. And now that I've admitted that, naturally I can try to fix that. I'm really not a judgmental person, it's just that first impression that steers my decision. Generally I don't give a rip what a person has done or hasn't done - I am pretty easy going on stuff like that. I don't throw stones when I live in a glass house (or something to that effect). And I absolutely hate it when people pass judgment on me.

Moving on...

I wish I could find something to do with my 8 hours a day that makes me happier than what I'm doing right now. It's like being trapped in a cage with a gazillion other mice, and all you have to do is gnaw and pick on each other. The work gets done, it's just the extracurricular activities that make it so mind numbing. It's impossible to tell from day to day who is disliking who and who decided someone else is their best friend. I do like what I do - that's for sure. I don't like what goes on around doing what I'm doing. It's exhausting. It's very hard to place myself outside of it and not let it get to me. It's something I try to do on a daily basis. Sometimes I succeed and sometimes not so much.

That being said, I should really get back to it so.....