OH ME OH MAMA

I never thought that I would change "that much" when I became a mother. I thought that my personality and my sense of humor would stay the same and the only thing that would change is that - well - I'd have a kid and less of a social life.

Which was fine because my social life hadn't been happening for a long time, and I wanted a baby. In one way or another.

Things are different. Anybody out there who is a mom already has probably already scoffed at my first sentence. It was one of those crazy wide open out there statements that I tend to make. Pfft... like being a mother WOULDN'T change a person right?

But here's the thing.... I feel like I'm more of a human being now than I ever was before. It's not just the "finding a purpose" aspect of it, it's that my life is so much richer and more colorful. I have a 10 pound entertainment center that coos and smiles. I am not excited to leave home very often. I'm more excited to make home my destination.

I laugh more. I probably cry more too - but I don't know what that's all about. Julia's smiles are so contagious that even when she's not right in front of me I'm beaming.

I've found so much security and warmth in my little family pod. It really is the greatest gift, even when half of it is crying for an hour straight for a reason I have yet to figure out. I'm her mommy and some day she'll realize what mommy means and I'll have found that new identity of mine has new meaning once again.

I don't want to romanticise the whole thing. Babies are hard work. It's alot easier work when it's done in pairs. It's way easier work when there isn't much to stress about. It's the easiest job in the world when you get a toothless grin as a reward.

Or a silly cheeky look.


SPONGEBOB KITEY PANTS

Rob and I bought a couple of cheap kites a few weeks back and finally got to test them out tonight. We went to the Capitol and met up with Jill and her little 2 year old son Cole. Rob bought extra string for the Spongebob kite so it was flying super high. Cole and Jill manned the Super Grover. It was so fun to see Cole's excited face.

Rob lost the string and went diving to the ground to get it as it flew away. He caught it though - but not without getting grass stains all the way up his shirt.

A 40-something woman was walking around the Capitol grounds and she was so excited to see someone flying a kite. She said that she had seen kites in the air but never saw anybody actually flying one. She was pretty hesitant when Rob offered to let her fly a kite since she had never done it, but she got the courage and tried it. I have never seen anyone so excited to fly a kite. It was very sweet to see her so thrilled with something I would have never considered a huge thrill. She said we were the 'nicest people' but I think the nicest person there was her.

I mean, she thought a Spongebob kite was 'beautiful'
Zoinks, yo.