I DON'T HAVE JUNK...I HAVE TREASURE

Mood: Drunken. Frisky.
Listening to: Crystal Method - True Grit

The Haps On The Craps Is As Follows:

Cristy sent me the pics of Gavyn from 2 weekends ago. Witness the cuteness below:



He could quite possibly be the cutest baby specimen on the planet. This is for shizzle.

Tonight was tea night at TGI Fridays. Not to mention Cinco De Mayo - but who needs any other reason to go out on Wednesday night? I should be in the shower instead of trying to spell everything correctly and not type like a drunken rambling fool. But I think that's what I do best, so why try anything else? Am I right. Of course I'm right.

I'm always fucking right.

So is Loo. She said I don't update enough. This is true. And it's also why I'm sitting here right now updating. Otherwise this update wouldn't be here until Sunday night or some shit.

Last night I got crafty and tried to draw. And then I tried to scan the drawing and color it in. I'm going to perfect this practice sooner or later. Then I'll be able to create this weblog stuff with my own artwork. I'm not so much good with the pens but I've got plenty of imagination to pull me through.

I also realized the other night that The Crystal Method HAVE to have a new CD coming out soon, so I looked it up only to remember that I spaced out their new cd that came out in January. So I went to Target last night to find it, but the fuckers didn't have it. I went to Sam Goody during lunch and bought it. I officially have a new favorite cd. I think I'm going to over play this one like I've been over playing the last 2 for the past couple of years. So far every song has been nothing short of fantastic. I tried to download the songs when I realized I couldn't buy it for cheap, but that's always a gamble when you're not sure what the songs actually sound like. I'm glad I got that accomplished. I also found out that Sam Goody has their Community Service cd. I would have got that but it was fuckin 17.99 - so it will wait. SOMEDAY!...

Good lord the living room smells like fish tank. The smaller tank has a yucky icky poo koi fish and I wonder if his big ass isn't what is making that smell. I need to clean it or something. I'm sitting way far away from it and it's overwhelming. The apartment almost smells like a fucking pet store. Without the puppies and kitties and assorted other animals. hehe...

Hanging out with Rachael tonight was a blast. We are still the same together - and she's still the same boy magnet. I swear, anybody that came over to our table was looking for her. Just like the last time we went out when everybody that waved or looked had their eyes on her. She's a pretty girl, but it's still bewildering. Someday she'll find that special somebody and maybe then the parade of boys will stop.

I DON'T LOVE HIM ANYMORE
That shouldn't be a surprise to anybody, but I'm saying it right now, right here. For the first time in my life I can say with certainty that I've closed a chapter of my life. When I think of him, I think only of a name... there isn't a recognizable face that accompanies the thoughts, and most often times there isn't even a happy thought or peaceful memory. I rid myself of the photographs and left myself with only the memories....and now that those are fading I'm realizing more and more what great things are in store for me in the future. It actually DOES take letting go of the things that you knew to find something better suited for you. .... Taking myself out of my comfort zone was one of the smartest things I could have done. I'm moving forward and everything of the past is becoming a blur of names. It doesn't change what happened, it has only changed the way those experiences affect me. And like I said, it's not a surprise - I'm just saying it once and for all. I thought that the day I woke up and didn't feel sick, or didn't think about him would be the day I could announce it - but I have found that those things are trivial in comparison to just letting life happen. Being shaped and unfolded by life when I wasn't expecting it was the best medicine I could have imagined.

I've uncovered a treasure box full of the things that will carry me through this life. Riches and jewels fade in comparison to the comfort and security of finding someone who compliments every part of me and my life. My best friend. My partner in crime. My life has come full circle - and what a ride it's been.

Like A Wink And A Smile

We watched The Cooler the other night. It's a VERY good movie. I might even consider buying it. It's one of those artsy-metaphorical movies. I will need to watch it a couple of times before I figure everything out.

Bed time!...2 updates in one week. This has got to be some kind of record or something.

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I feel like I'm coming up with something big in my head. I hope I can figure it all out -and with any luck and the proper amount of time trying to be creative by myself I might actually come up with it. Stay tuned for any revelations. I mean, if you want to.

PS... 99 cent breadsticks at TGI Fridays are seriously the way to go.
PPS... I love Robert James.