Human Conditioning

"I stood and let the ocean cool my feet and felt....nothing. Or maybe it was the end of love that I was feeling, the cool empty place that's left inside you where all that heat and pain and passion used to be, the slick of wet sand after the tide finally rolls back out.

Okay, I thought. Here you are. You are here. And you move forward because that's the way it works; that's the only place you can go. You keep going until it stops hurting, or until you find new things to hurt you worse, I guess. And that is the human condition, all of us lurching along in our own private miseries, because that's the way it is. Because, I guess, God didn't give us any choice. You grow up, I remembered. You learn."

From Good In Bed
by Jennifer Weiner

It is, indeed time for me to grow up and learn. To embrace that wet sand emptiness of what was, all the while very much looking forward for the next tide to roll in. And roll in it will.