Here Comes The Boom

I should really learn to get my ass to bed at a decent time. Sometimes you just wanna stay on the phone for 2 hours though. That's when all the good stuff happens. Aaaaaah *floats*

I believe that I've mentioned it before, but this Creativity candle by Crystal Journey Candles OWNS. I could use about 100 more of them. They're great with bubble baths.

I have so much to say but so little ambition to push it out there. Loo said to me today "I love us".. I think that was so cute. So classic. We have fun parties together and usually it's just the two of us. Good times. Even though she's a lightweight.

Finish Your Damn Drink!

I got a phone call from out of the blue tonight. Brandon called me while I was buying pregnant pants with Cristy. All the way from Virginia. He's STILL without power, but was at sea when the hurricane blew through. It was great to talk to him again. Even though I didn't know who the crap it was at first. It does take a second some times.

I wish I had the usual 'deep emotional' bullshit to post, but I don't really have that in me anymore. It's been awhile since I've actually felt the need or urge to delve into those depths. I just don't care to. I feel like a part of me has sorta cut itself off. It's easier this way. I wouldn't call it numb, because there is so much about me that "feels", but I do know that there is a big part of me that has closed itself up. Self preservation. I am not sitting around licking my wounds but I'm not about to go out there and let something else hurt me.

That disgusts me in a way though. That's not who I am. I am the one who experiences.

At least that's who I thought I was. Now I sorta remind myself of Madonna and her James Bond song. The one about closing her body. I feel as if I have done that. Part of me has vacated for awhile. It will be back. Perhaps it's in Jamaica scuba diving with the fishes or hanging out in Glacier Park. I miss it, and yet I'm almost relieved. I don't have to worry for the time being.

I can see this great new life on the horizon. I can see the details and the fine print and everything in it. I'm so excited for it. I'm not ready for it right now, but I will be when it gets here. Open armed and ready to get shit started.