Internet Junkie

Good god I am lost without the internet at home. It's like what would happen if Lindsay had to go without cable TV for a week. I get the shakes and I lose my appetite. It's just no good.

Well, things for me suck. Plain and simple. It's hard to look to the future because all that stares me in the face is a big blank slate. Starting over is going to suck. I could look at it as something positive. I can go out and find happiness after this miserable summer. I can get on with things. It's easier to look back though. I know that in time I will stop all that nonsense and focus on the road ahead of me.

I hope I hope I hope.

I really really REALLY dislike 3 Doors Down.

I have a funny story. It's embarassing.
Last week I finally made it to "The Playground". The place I had been wanting to visit for awhile now for some good old fashioned fun. It's fun like running through the sprinklers and jumping in the mud. Highland Acres school playground has some kickass equipment. Me and Loo went there last week and I thought I would test my acrobatic skills on the monkey bars. These were no ordinary bars though, they were big and crooked and painted yellow. I climbed on top with all intentions of doing the best damn Apple Turnover since ... well since EVER.

So there I was, flat on my stomach on these bar thingies, I'm getting my grip - positioning myself for the fantastic fliporama.... I go over, I'm flipping and flopping and as my feet are about to reach the ground - or at least I THOUGHT they were hitting the ground - I kept swinging until my hands slipped off the bars and I landed *WHUMP* in the sand. Not quite face first, but if I were going in to the water it would have been one helluva belly flop. That was some quality entertainment.

Thank god those bars weren't nearly as high as I remember them being. Either that or thank goodness that I'm taller. Not much smarter apparently.

But it was a good story to tell the grandkids someday.

As I walked away chewing my gum, the only thing that hurt was my pride...and maybe my teeth from all the sand that got in my gum.

I've been spending a lot of time in the sun lately too. I guess it takes getting dumped on my ass to get me outside and doing stuff. Which is pretty odd considering all I ever wanted to do was get outside and do stuff. Funny how that works.

I know I shouldn't waste my time with anger, but for the past few days it's been about the only emotion I have left to feel. I can't help but feel like this is the hugest mistake but there's this teeny voice inside screaming "HALLELUJAH".

Now let's go find that happy.