Time Falling Down

It's an awful conlusion to come to when you figure out two people are ultimately traveling along two different paths. You thought there was so much between you to keep you in the same general direction and all of the sudden you realize you were very wrong...it's a very humbling thought. It's a pretty unhappy moment. It's an unavoidable truth.

Here it is almost 3am, and I'm waiting. I've sat in this same situation waiting many times. It never got me anywhere but disappointed. It never got me anywhere other than to these doubts I'm experiencing now. Waiting for priorities to be rearranged is like waiting for your birthday to arrive 24 hours after you celebrated it. You missed the bus, but you're still hopeful it will turn around and come back for you. That bus is determined enough not to forget you, because dammit...it loves you.

Bah.

I don't know exactly what it takes for someone to wake up and realize what you expect them to eventually wake up and realize. I'm not sure that event actually happens. If you're determined to live your life in a fictionalized drama, then that day is guaranteed to come. Otherwise you have no other choice but to keep your distance and make sure that distance increases.

I really don't think there's any other way.
I'm not sure there's any other way for me to go.
So I'll just sit and wait for the phone to ring until I come to that conclusion.